Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Hollow
Just this morning I penned a letter I didn't send.
I poured out my deepest thoughts, was about to reveal this side, this vulnerable side of mine, but... ...this past few days had been exhausting. Draining. It's wearing me thin, shuttling to and fro the hospital. She's doing better now, much better, today's the 3rd day of not eating, she lost weight. Lips dry, and pale. Lifeless eyes, with spiritless movements. She woke up when I stepped into the room, though I did with soft and light steps. I tried to crack a joke or two, she smiled, I teased, relieved. So much relief.
Just yesterday I heard her yelped in pain before the 1st surgery, how much it pains my heart, oh how it tugs at my soul. How should I even describe it? Helpless? Empty? Hollow. I took my keys out and opened the bottle with the familiar green lever. Surprise me, god, surprise me. The games you're playing.
I did it again didn't I? Trusting someone I shouldn't have. It's this constant, never-ending hollowness that fills me. What irony huh. This wrenching heartsink. I hear sniffs, far away. Distant. No, not from me. Not from the new me.
p.s: The consolation? I've hit rock-bottom dear god, and I cant go any lower.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
rainy tuesday
calls for some ice cream therapy
all decked in red tonight hope lady luck's on my side
willing to give you 12373289 kisses and hugs mwa mwa mwa
all decked in red tonight hope lady luck's on my side
willing to give you 12373289 kisses and hugs mwa mwa mwa
Saturday, February 18, 2012
time will tell
thats what they all say and ive no idea if its me or what
seriously got me thinkin alot lately maybe its expectation that kills
then again contrains are killing too
've got no clue whats next the route and the future so bleak
over thinking kills and everything's so krazy cant wait for tmrs game
have a good weekend people
seriously got me thinkin alot lately maybe its expectation that kills
then again contrains are killing too
've got no clue whats next the route and the future so bleak
over thinking kills and everything's so krazy cant wait for tmrs game
have a good weekend people
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
round 2 tonight
and the good ol' boys were saying
honey we go big or go home
Big is the answer obviously
big and beer rhymes anyway,
wait it doesnt..? too little beer man.
more, more, till it all rhymes.
Holidays are so close, assignments due, presentations....
I can smell you already.
Anyway guess who's gna celebrate her birthday in London?
Fuck yeah April come quick Cant wait.
..and guess who's a sick kitty, AGAIN. crappy immune system /cough cough
need my daily dose of aspirin :>
back t assignments and thr's a presentation tmr, and test on fri and another on mon and it goes on and on and on and on and on
have a good week y'all!
honey we go big or go home
Big is the answer obviously
big and beer rhymes anyway,
wait it doesnt..? too little beer man.
more, more, till it all rhymes.
Holidays are so close, assignments due, presentations....
I can smell you already.
Anyway guess who's gna celebrate her birthday in London?
Fuck yeah April come quick Cant wait.
..and guess who's a sick kitty, AGAIN. crappy immune system /cough cough
need my daily dose of aspirin :>
back t assignments and thr's a presentation tmr, and test on fri and another on mon and it goes on and on and on and on and on
have a good week y'all!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
keepin me on tenterhooks darling
Swinging in the back yard
Pull up in your fast car
Whistling my name
Open up a beer and
Say get over here
And play your video game
In your favorite sun dress
Watching me get undressed
Take that body down town, honey
I say you the bestest
Lean in for a big kiss
Put his favorite purfume on,
Go Play your video games
It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew.
They say that the world was built for two.
On our way with living
If somebody is loving you
Baby nowt will do
Singing in the old bar
Swinging with the old stars
Living for the fame
Kissing in the blue dark
Playing pool and wild darts
Video games
He holds me in his big arms
He's drunk and I am seeing stars
This is all I think of
Watching all our friends fall
Leaning out of old cars
This is my idea of fun
Playing video games
It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew.
They say that the world was built for two.
On our way with living
If somebody is loving you
Baby now you do
(Now you do)
It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth wit' you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew.
They say that the world was built for two.
On our way with living
If somebody is loving you
Maybe now you do
Maybe now you do
Friday, February 10, 2012
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
cough cough
popping pills expecting to recover immediately :(
had been camping home recently nursing myself back to health.
back to assignments :(((((
had been camping home recently nursing myself back to health.
back to assignments :(((((
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Wtf thursday alr?
Wtf February alr? Cannot wait for March already.....Feb's gna be SO super duper exhausting plus there's so many assignments due, and tests, and presentations and Valentine's day double wtf no triple disappointment.
Some Chico therapy to make me better T____T
willing to run anywhere with you baby
double combo ^___^
COME TO ME NOW ALREADY YOU QTPIE
Have a good February y'all! x
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
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